Hey guys, I'm back to update my blog with some chipsmore on my hand, eating it bit by bit ( my supper eh ) anyway, I'm still a little bit upset of yesterday incident which I will write it out later but firstly, I wanna say that TOMORROW I'M HOME ALONE !! YES ! Grandma gonna go to her sister's house ( Yes, i mean sister ) for a stayover plus my sis will be out to school tomorrow, so I'm alone at home Hoho, anyone want sleepover in my house tomorrow feel free to SMS me ! we can chat all night long without grandma suddenly come in and ask me to sleep LOL! Ohya, I've asked my friend to snap 2 pictures of my clay model but he haven't send it to me.. I guess he pretty busy editting his Singapore trip sponsored by Nuffnang ( Is a nuffnang blog award event and he get to go Singapore fully sponsored by Nuffnang, man, I envy him huhu ) Anyway, just brought back my clay model home and I have to touch it up ASAP or else I will be left behind Haihz.. Without my friends guidance, I will mess up everything that I touch oh my... Hopefully this time I won't mess it up anymore or else I will have Mr Dennis to fix it all over again.. What a pain in the ass! Nevertheless, I will try my best to do it carefully and give my full attention on it!
Next will be an Event that I'm gonna organize + plan together with my secondary schoolmates to go Singapore for a trip! Is gonna be 3 days 2 nights ( hopefully ) that means I've got a chance to meet my IRO Sons and brothers too! Even my dad,Fayt too! Man, I can't wait to go ! But saddest part is that I gotta start to save money to go there now.. Saving money is the hardest task for me right now as I only know how to waste but not earn and save it, so anyone mind to help me out here? Ways of saving and earning money guide? Anyone? Desperate now! Tomorrow I'm going out with Yew for facial treatment ( Yes, facial treatment in Connaught Herbaline ) Rm28 with body massage! After that gonna go register for membership in Fitness First, guess I have to start doing sports now or else I wonder I will become "Da Fei Zhu" when I grow older but there are thoughts that keep popping out of nowhere.. Questions without answers stop me for a sec.. What if I start and stop early? What if I run out of money? The WH- word keep coming in and out yet I can't find the answer but nevertheless, I shall give it a try.
Do you know everyone has a life story to tell? Do you know that everyone has a path to walk? Do you know that everyone has a chance to be anything? Now, here is the question, which will you choose? God created us in this world full with good and bad things but you have a choice to choose which way you should land your foot on.. What has happened yesterday greatly challenged me.. As we all know that my bro are quite negative as he hates the world and the people in this world who betrayed him. Thousands of time he stand up and face the world but people just love to betray him until now he give up and hated them ever since it happened. Yesterday we were chatting and debating, questioning what is life to us.. He was very angry, hating the world so much that he ownself felt that he become evil that nobody can save him from this evilness and hatred in him. As his brother, I try to pull him back to the right path, trying to console him, to comfort him and give him advice that he shouldn't be like that.. He even mention that he will kill those who betrayed others, he will kill all the bad people in this world even if he have to go to hell, he doesn't care. He wants to drag others along to hell, those who are evil, treated others like nobody business.
I did my best to help gor, I did everything and try to help you out but you refuse and said that is too late now for I will never ever again trust other people.. Gor, that's not the right way of solving your hatred nor problems that is in you.. I know you got hurt badly, too deep until you have lost your trust on others and wanted to kill them all but that will not cure your heart and that is not the way to solve the problem. Is true that evil people deserved to be smash and kill and etc but there are other way to solve it. If you kill them all, does it make any different between you and them? That doesn't help you at all. You need to let go of your hatred, or else you will suffer even more. I know i'm just a typically good people who knows how to talk but different in acting but I'm trying my best to help you out. Because of this, you even give up on me when I'm trying to help you change. Gor, is never too late for everything as long as you got the heart to change, you will. Try to change, maybe it will benefit you more than now. Living your life like a prisoner in hell will make you suffer like a burning prisoner from hell. Try to let go of your hatred, try to trust again, to have hope again, maybe your world will be brighten up once again. Although you already give up on me, but I'm not gor, I'll be here whenever you need me.
I did try to avoid this matter, to be angry, to dislike you, to SMS you with alot of questions regarding our brotherhood but I didn't do any of it cause I know that is your decision and I respect it but I will not let go of you. I still care you as my brother that is why I've send you a message to ask you to take care of yourself but you did not reply me so I guess I know the answer already. Nevertheless, I hope you will realize it and find me back. Please smile back.........
I wonder did I changed lately... do I?
Cheers,
Lenux with a heavy heart
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